Monday, May 23, 2011

Wall and Fitblogger.

UGH!!! I think I'm going to rip my hair out!!! I'm stuck. Not failing with working out, but with eating. I'm not eating bad, but I'm snacking. And when I start snacking, I don't stop. This is the biggest reason I'm in the situation right now. Right now I'm somewhere between 1500 and 2000 calories for today. I ate an entire box of reduced fat Wheat Thins -1170 calories. Yep, that's right! I'm going to stick to a simple salad at dinner, but it doesn't take back what I did. If this was one time that I did it, then it wouldn't be a big deal, but SUNDAY-over eat, SATURDAY -over eat, FRIDAY -over eat. Let's just stop there.  UGH!!! So, what do I do? I've completely lost my will power and self control. Honestly, I kind of feel disgusted with myself. Tonight I have YOGA (YAY!!!!) so maybe I can do some self reflection.

I'm really emotional right now. I'm in what is called the TWO WEEK WAIT. The time between you ovulate and when you can get a positive pregnancy test. When you've been trying for a baby for so long, this time is EXTREMELY stressful. But it is no reason for over eating. Also, I found out this weekend that a dear friend's young (17 year old) daughter is now expecting. Just another hit in the gut it feels. Why did MY baby have to go when there are so many that don't need/want them? It's not fucken fair! Don't get me wrong, that young woman will be a great mother, and she's got a wonderful family. But I can't say that I'm not jealous.



Alright, enough about that. Here's my FITBLOGGER info -
How'd I do last week? OK! I got a TON of water down, even if it wasn't totally my goal, but I did get a decent amount in my tummy each and every day. YAY.
What's my goal for this week? After these last few days I think it would be appropriate to have the goal of NOT OVER SNACKING. With my food schedule, it's important that I have at least 1 snack in the afternoon, but usually it's a high protein or fiber bar (less than 100 calories). It just helps me get through until dinner.

10 comments:

Faith said...

It's so disheartening when we let ourselves slip and over eat/snack. But...everyone deserves to let go and get their "food vent" once in a while. If not, we'd(at least for me) never be able to trudge through and ultimately go the distance.

Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. {{HUGS}}

Sweet Pea said...

Oh, I think we are two birds of the same feather...eating wise and ttc wise. I have infertility issues (tried for over 7+ yrs.) and my dear friend just informed me of a mutual friends daughter surprise pregnancy...ugh. Slap me in the face again !! Sending you (((HUGS))) and if you ever just need to talk, leave me your email addy in my comment box.

Maria_NJ said...

It will happen...everything has a time...as for the snacking...FRUIT!!
I swear it is my lifeline...when I want something I pick a piece of fruit, it really helps...

ThunderThighs said...

I know how you feel about being fine with working out but sucking a baby's pink tit on eating. BUT, sometimes, I think our bodies force us to eat more because we really need it. Or we just have no self-control, but let's go with the first one. Ok, in all seriousness I'm for real, after a few weeks of good dieting, I tend to splurge a little (ok a lot) for a week or so, and I still tend to lose a little weight. I truly believe our bodies know what we need more than our minds do. And as for the baby thing, put your trust in God (if that's what you're into of course), for He has a plan for you. Or (if you don't do the God thang), there is a reason for everything, and your day will come. Keep your head up!

Dancing with the Scales said...

Hi there. I'm your newest follower. Looking forward to following along. Good luck on your fit challenge.

Kristy said...

I can totally sympathize with the snacking thing. I eat when I'm bored, stressed, happy and sad. I wonder how I got to this weight? ;)

I'm so sorry to hear about your difficulty to conceive. I will say a prayer for you. **hugs**

BnE's Mommy said...

All I've got for you is this: (((HUG))) :)

Firball said...

Good luck Lisa! A trick I use is to not keep things around... If it's not there or I have to go searching for it, I end up not eating it!

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Karen@WaistingTime said...

I can't keep crackers in the house anymore. I could easily go through a box lickety split. Actually, there are a lot of foods I can't keep around anymore:(