I am actually am starting to get the routines down, and the instructor made it a point as we were leaving to tell me that I was doing great, and she was so happy to see me there every week. My thought was; "you noticed me!" I am usually in the back trying to Zumba, and not always doing such a great job at it. Anyway, that made me feel great!
I am putting on a dinner for about 10 people tonight, so I was planning to NOT count my calories since it's bbq chicken and potatoes, I was just planning on eating a small portion. I had to go to the store, and I decided to get a snack. As I was picking it up, I was completely disappointed in myself. It was cheese and crackers, one of my favorite snacks. As I was eating it, I was disappointed in myself. Now, after I ate it, I'm totally disappointed in myself. Why, when knowing I'd feel disappointed, did I do it? As for those about to post; It's ok, or; we all do that once in a while. The truth is that it's not ok. It's habits and actions like that that I'm trying to STOP! So, here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to put a counter for days healthy on my blog. This is an addiction type of habit that needs to break!
2 comments:
I always wondered why I did this too. The moment of "yum" never is equal to the guilt afterward. The only thing I can chalk it up to is we are so addicted to instant-gratification. We want happiness and we want it now.
Your idea to keep track of healthy days is a great one. Good luck!
Oh, and be proud for your self-awareness! Pat yourself on the back for being able to analyze the situation and come up with a great idea for a solution!
I do exercise regularly (at a my YMCA and with DVDs at home), but I've never tried zumba. I am a little scared, especially in a class setting with other people! I'm totally uncoordinated. (When I do exercise DVDs at home with things like kickboxing and step aerobics it usually takes at least 5 times to finally start to get it.) However, it looks like it might be fun. My Y does have one class and I also know there are some zumba dvds, so maybe I should try it.
I understand the guilt thing. You wonder why on earth you do something if you are feeling guilty before, during, and after!
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